Month: April 2020

April – The Month of Getting Used To It

Coronavirus still has the globe in its depressing grip, and lockdown is still in full effect. That being said, as a key worker, it’s interesting to note how little my life has changed, as I already did a lot of my socialising online. I actually consider myself fairly lucky in these respects; I was off work around the time that this all started, and the two necessary trips I made out during that time were riddled with anxiety and an eeriness regarding the changed state of the world. As a retail worker, however, who’s in the shop five to six days a week, the new state of the world has normalised itself in my brain, and while I’m taking every step to remain healthy as seriously as ever, I no longer look out the window and feel fear.

From the comfort of my own home, then, activities I’ve pursued outside the usual sphere of hobbies has included – as you may have seen – writing a three part blog series about my favourite soundtracks across all of gaming, movies and TV, among other media. This was brought about after completing one of those Facebook challenge things where I outlined ten of my most influential albums; I wondered if there was any room for soundtracks, and when there wasn’t resolved to appreciate them in my own rambling way.

Also this month, Zach Braff and Donald Faison launched their Scrubs rewatch podcast Fake Doctors, Real Friends. Scrubs is one of my favourite shows ever made, and their podcast could not have been better timed given the events currently unfolding today. It’s hilarious and fascinating and at times poignant, and it’s inspired me creatively to be less hesitant to start projects out of a fear of failure, too. In short, if you love Scrubs, you need to hear this podcast.

Now, let’s see what last year’s Kristian was up to in his version of April.

A Journal Through Time #11

This was when I started adding the Recent Headlines and Further Reading sections to give a better idea of what was unfolding in the world at that time. It was a neat idea in concept, but ultimately was more effort than it was worth and was probably a factor in what lead to me eventually giving up on the project.

In this entry I pretty much just got annoyed at redditors for being redditors. Also of note is that I still haven’t seen Shazam or Hellboy, which are two movies I cited as points of anticipation in this blog post.

A Journal Through Time #12

This entry was all about me having a renewed appreciation for my physical health, which is rather eerie timing given what’s going on in the world today. A friend of mine had just opened up to me about some dark times they’d been through regarding health, and I can safely say that even if Coronavirus wasn’t a thing right now, it’s something that would still be in the back of my mind, especially now that we have a family friend going through some very long hospital stints of their own.

A Journal Through Time #13

The entry where I discovered just how effective of a natural high doing acts of kindness can be. There’s sure as shit plenty of room for that in today’s world. Check in with your elders, folks.

A Journal Through Time #14

This was a short one, but it’s an argument for shorter entries in that it succinctly reflects a very important thought process I had regarding the use of magic in a fantasy world, and the consequences of not setting boundaries.

 

Year to Year: A Journal Through Time #15 – A Decade in the Making, Twice (29/4/19)

Recent headlines

World: Nothing good or noteworthy, if I’m perfectly honest.

Gaming: ‘Minecraft’ Creator Excluded From Anniversary Due to ‘Comments and Opinions’ (Being a transphobic white supremacist definitely merits being written out of your legacy. Justice is sweet.)


It’s time to write this week’s Year by Year journal post, but I’m just sorta sat here in shocked silence. For context, yesterday I saw Avengers: Endgame and today I saw Game of Thrones Season 8 Episode 3, ‘The Long Night’. That these two major, climactic battles that have been being built towards for about a decade each should occur within the same weekend seems like some cosmic commiseration for the dull chaos occurring in politics. Whereas both the movie and the show dealt with characters of uncommon values coming together to face an overwhelming existential threat, the governments of today continue to ignore climate change and prejudicial hatred amongst society. That may seem like an odd segue, but when you think about it, fictional works of science fiction and fantasy are created to mirror our world, with enough differences to get us emotionally invested so that we can learn about the follies of humankind without feeling preached at. If we do fall to inaction or hatred, we will have one emotion to blame: our pride.

Speaking a little more directly about Avengers and Game of Thrones (and mild, year-old spoilers ahead), I have to say that the most exciting thing is speculating about where they go from here. The Marvel Cinematic Universe still has no end in sight, though the first three ‘phases’ of the MCU from Iron Man to Endgame have been labelled as ‘The Infinity Saga’ – I have to wonder if they’ll spin up some new over-arcing storyline or whether they’ll concentrate more on individuals with the occasional crossover. Game of Thrones has, by the end of The Long Night, tackled what most people would label the definitive threat of the show, and while there’s still [the only other threat] left to deal with, I can’t see that stretching for three episodes with a satisfying conclusion, at the pace they’re going. So for both of these franchises which I love so much, I’m at a place where I can’t predict much about what’s going to occur. I write this down because, of course, perhaps Future Kristian will know more!

Part of the reason this project exists is to preserve a memory of my perspective of a period of time in my life, and I’ve found that the fastest memories to fade are ones of how I felt about a piece of fiction when first experiencing it. I can’t tell you what my reaction was to the Red Wedding, whether I even read it or watched it first as it was around that time that I paused my reading of the books to try out the show. I’d love to know what my thoughts on the nascent MCU were after watching Thor. I can tell you that my first lasting experience with Star Wars was the Lego Star Wars videogame, and I’ll never disassociate the two.

A lot of my life right now is just me being absorbed in the worlds I love. I was concerned for a while last week that I was too invested in fiction as I often use it for escapism, but given that I’m in a fairly good place right now, I think it’s just that everything’s getting really fucking good.

We have three weeks left of Game of Thrones. Afterwards, I’m sure I’ll be less distracted and will write about things of more consequence.


Further reading:

The Weekly Deathmatch #53 – Overwatch – Own It On Blu-Ray

Multiversal Masterpieces – The Best Sounds Around, Part 2

Hello and welcome back to the blog posts where I discuss the best of the best, a playlist which is still big enough to require splitting into three parts! As you can probably guess, my general soundtracks playlist is somewhat enormous, a design choice which makes listening on shuffle a delightfully unpredictable experience.

When we left off I’d revealed my favourite Skyrim soundtrack, but the Elder Scrolls isn’t done being represented here! Not by far. I’m a quite a fan of Elder Scrolls Online, you see, and they’ve had a number of expansions since launch.

 

Runner up: The Towers Cast Long Shadows

The best part about an MMO’s soundtrack is that it’s brimming with atmosphere. Moons of Evening Star in particular sends me back to the many hours of exploring the larger world of Tamriel for the first time, becoming familiar with places never before seen in the Elder Scrolls games but often written of in the game’s many books. I can almost picture my Dark Elf Sorcerer stopping for a rest somewhere amidst the ashen hills of Stonefalls as this plays. I love it!

 

Runner up: A Land of War and Poetry

I never got to play Morrowind when it was a, erm, modern RPG, and I absolutely cannot get into it now – I’ve tried, several times. And I know there’s thousands of elitist TES III fans who would cry out to hear me say this, but ESO fulfilled my desire to explore Morrowind’s island of Vvardenfell. It’s one of the best times I’ve had in ESO, and was the closest the game has ever felt to a traditional Elder Scrolls game to me, insofar as I was highly immersed in the quest and world design. Grazelands Dawn, then, was a very prominent soundtrack in and around the outdoor zone of Vvardenfell, and I associate it with some of my best memories in the game. Plus, even I can tell it’s a throwback to TES III itself!

 

Runner up: Dusk Song of the High Elves

Okay, so login music feels like an easy choice, right? But that doesn’t make it the wrong one. It’s great both in context and without. In context, it’s the music you associate with an entire year of ESO, with that entire expansion, and it’s one I happen to like. Out of context, it’s a track which with a lot of elements; it has some of the zone’s peaceful atmosphere, and some of the story’s battle theme, composed in a way which gives a sense of adventure.

 

Runner up: The Two-Moons Dance

More login music! I’m continually impressed at the multitude of ways they manage to alter the original Elder Scrolls theme to fit whichever corner of Tamriel wins the year’s story. As with Summerset before it, this soundtrack has many elements of the Elsweyr chapter as a whole. And while I admit that the story and land of Elsweyr didn’t grip my quite as thoroughly as the preceding expansions, the music certainly didn’t fail to form a vital part of thematic zone cohesion, which is totally a game design term and not something I just came up with on the spot.

That’s all for ESO, for now, as Greymoor has yet to be released! Onto another Blizzard franchise.

 

Okay… confession time. I’ve never played Diablo II. But that Rogue theme is ICONIC. It is so masterful at evoking that spooky, dark-fantasy feel of the Diablo franchise and has assuredly inspired many ARPG soundtracks in the years since. I hear not only the obvious Diablo III soundtrack coming from this, but also a lot of Torchlight’s atmosphere (which sadly doesn’t seem to have been released). But enough fanboying, I suppose I should move us on to a game I actually have played…

 

Runner up: And the Heavens Shall Tremble

Twang. Twang Twang. The first time I played Diablo III was as a demo on the PS3, and I was immediately struck by the evocative and flavourful music that was New Tristram. If Blizzard know how to do one thing, it is to craft a world with atmosphere, and the soundtrack is vital to making that craft a success. New Tristram has dark fantasy gloom in spades. It took the rogue theme from Diablo II and it ran with it, applying drear and dismay to every mortal it touched as it passed by. Just… just bravo.

 

Chains of Fate has this build-up to it which I basically salivate over every time I think of it. And words fail me a little here, as I’ve mentioned before, as I have very little knowledge when it comes to actual musical theory, but something about the instruments used with that always building tempo paints this picture of… hopeless perseverance? It just suits the Nephalem so perfectly, and their journey thorugh the world of Sanctuary.

Man, Diablo IV cannot get here soon enough.

 

Runner up: Brothers In Arms

Duh-duh-duh-DUHHH! I was tempted to choose one of the slightly less obvious themes in the game, but come on, it’s the Halo theme, and we’re talking about masterpieces here. And this masterpiece is such a masterpiece that you’re about to see it posted three times in a row!

 

Because, in my defence, I’m still waiting on Halo 2 and 3 to be released on PC. But omitting every version of duh-duh-duh-duh-song just felt wrong. Especially when this one added GUITAR phwoarr guitar.

 

And I mean, really, when all is said and done, will my choice for album Masterpiece be any different? I fully expect to find a few themes I love that I’ve never heard before – like Halo CE’s Brothers In Arms, or On A Pale Horse – but come on, it’s the Halo theme.

 

Runner up: Overture

Well, it’s close to the Halo theme, but it’s not quite – and isn’t that just Halo Reach in a nutshell? Regardless, Reach was the first Halo game I ever got to play, as it’s what they released first on PC, and this cinematic was when shit really started to hit the fan. That campaign drew me in and blew me away, and I was listening to this track for weeks afterwards.

We’re skipping Halo 4 because I know so little about that game I don’t even know if the Halo theme is in it. And it is of course, but I do tend to look up soundtracks after I’m already familiar with the source material.

 

Runner up: Dominus Ghaul

Destiny 2 was my introduction to Bungie’s second space opera, and my god was it an introduction. Bungie’s many years of experience paid off in spades during the Red War campaign (Destiny 2’s main story), and I think it’s criminal that New Light players currently have to search for it in the corner of the main hub to play through it.

Journey tells a story of… well, the Hero’s Journey. It’s a story we’ve heard many times before, but the soundtrack, as with Bungie’s Red War campaign, tells it in such an expertly crafted and moving way. And as a voiceless Guardian, the soundtrack acts as your entryway into your character’s state of mind. Despondent, defeated, but then determined, resurgent, triumphant.

Oh, and one quick note on my runner-up track – Dominus Ghaul is such an incredible track that I honestly considered breaking my own rules and having two songs from one album in the same playlist. But I’m not breaking that rule for Game of Thrones, I’m not breaking it here.

 

Runner up: The Rifleman

So uh, apparently Bungie heard about Russel T Davies and Murray Gold owing me therapy and figured they’d pitch in for some of the bill.

Destiny 2 has so many amazing action themes, but I keep choosing the heartbreakers. But in my defence – and to Bungie’s credit – it’s never one-note. This song succeeds in telling the story of a character without a single lyric, and it does it all whilst simultaneously remaining true to the character and feeling bittersweet.

Man. Imagine thinking that videogames aren’t an art form when this exists.

 

Runner up: Salvation

All right, all right, here’s your action track. The thing I love so much about this song is that it plays during the end of a Strike, and it’s one that I had immense trouble with when playing through Shadowkeep for the first time. There was so much juicy story to follow and Hashladun, the space hag, was keeping me from it with her infuriating knockback stomp move. I did not serenade her with compliments for this. Motivated by the song, I gritted my teeth and threw myself at the fight time and time again until I overcame her and her endlessly spawning thralls and beat her. And it was one of the most satisfying moments I’ve had in a videogame; it was that rare, non-recreatable moment when the game’s narrative aligned my character’s determination with my own, making the taste of victory that much sweeter.

 

Runner up: Mice on Venus

Let’s shift gears a bit.

I could – and probably will – write an entire blog post about my history with Minecraft, but long story short, it dates all the way back to 2009 when I was playing the “classic” free version in a web browser window. Back then, the game only had three songs in it, and this was one of them.

C418’s melancholic, atmospheric piano easily takes me back a decade, even when it kicks in during a Minecraft session today. I’ll often take a moment to stop, look to the horizon, and remember long-lost save files of bases long past. I wonder if I still have any in my Dropbox…

 

Runner up: Haunt Muskie

I’ve only just realised that Volume Beta is full of songs that are Creative mode only. And I typically like my Creative worlds to be a flatmap, so this tune is often accompanied by the vast expanse of empty space, and the sound of me placing a bunch of stone bricks to outline a building I’m never going to finish. And maybe the occasional baa of a sheep that I’ve spawned in to fill the silence.

It’s less depressing than it sounds, I promsie.

 

Runner up: M54

Speaking of depressing though, here’s a track which goes on for literally twenty minutes and is some of the most beautiful and intensely melancholic atmosphere I’ve ever heard in a videogame. And I fucking love it. And if you don’t know what catharsis is yet, dear reader, then you’re probably very concerned about me, but rest assured, all is well. It’s good to let yourself be sad sometimes!

Jokes aside, there’s a grace to this which is rarely found in game soundtracks, and I’ve found it to be very useful in times of hardship before, both inside and outside the game.

We’ve reached the superhero portion of the soundtracks, so of course we’re starting with Batman! I’ve chosen what feels like the most quintessential / epic version of the Christopher Nolan Batman theme. I always liked how unreservedly dark these films were, and Hans Zimmer’s soundtrack reflects that theme exceptionally well. He also does a good job of creating a ticking clock and signalling Bruce’s determination.

Oh, and sorry for taking this long to include Hans Zimmer in my best soundtracks of all time playlist, I know that’s somewhat sacrilegious. But I had an order, okay?

Runner up: Flight

Now might be a good time to mention that I’m a DC Cinematic Universe apologist. Man of Steel was amazing! And that’s not just Henry Caville’s abs talking. Right, in all seriousness, I respect that people expected a different tone for a Superman movie, but the shounen anime fan in me just revels in the large scale devastation shown within the movie. Hans Zimmer seals the deal with another truly epic soundtrack. Again, not hugely confident in the musical terminology here, but I love how he uses low notes for foreboding and evil, and high notes for some of Superman’s big moments. Simple, sure, but remarkably effective.

Runner up: Is She With You?

How far do my shameless apologist ways stretch? Far enough to defend Batman v Superman to my dying breath. Not far enough to touch Suicide Squad with a ten foot barge pole.

I find it really impressive that Hans Zimmer (and co) managed to make another theme for Batman which was completely different to the Nolan films, and yet still fit Batman really well. I suppose you could argue that it’s more a theme for Bruce Wayne, given that this is the backing track for his origin story, for his parents getting shot. Either way, it’s effective in how it signals trauma and loss.

All right so… this may be cheating a little bit, regarding my rules, but I bloody love Wonder Woman’s theme and I can’t find as epic a version specifically within the Wonder Woman soundtrack. There’s some fantastic tracks in there for sure, but I remain enamoured with her battle theme from Batman v Superman.

Very, very excited for WW84!

Onto the MCU, where you’ll find… less than you might otherwise expect, as Marvel do a surprisingly bad job of creating memorable movie soundtracks, in my opinion. The Avengers theme is iconic though… though it’s a little hard to listen to independently without being reminded of half a dozen memes which blow out the audio for comedic effect. That’s hardly Alan Silvestri’s fault, though!

You’ll notice the odd song in here which seems maybe a little overly appreciated, at least compared to other themes. I don’t know, I have a few of them. The fact that this is simply called “Theme from Ant-Man” should indicate that it’s not intended to be especially revered. But it’s an absolute banger. I had it stuck in my head for days after I first watched the movie! It is, much like the movie itself, unexpectedly quite grand. And so it absolutely deserves its place on this list.

Runner up: vs. The Abilisk (another fantastic and underrated track, only glanced over due to the larger second half)

I remain confused as to why the soundtrack to the original film isn’t on Spotify, but this contains the main motif for the Guardians which I very much enjoy. It’s big, it’s grand, it’s good for Big Moments and it’s good for immediate pratfalls. The other 1:09 is good, I suppose, but that theme is what we’re really here for.

Runner up: Porch

Infinity War feels like the moment when the MCU as a whole began to take original soundtracks seriously. This theme in particular was given the task of building tension in a “last ditch effort” scene, and it did the job spectacularly. Infinity War is a masterpiece of a movie in its own right, but when we’re on the edge of our seats it’s Alan Silvestri who stokes our increased heartbeats. This song also includes The Bit Where Thor Shows Up, which automatically gives it bonus points. Think Avengers Assemble x100.

Runner up: The Real Hero

Unf. This moment. This is one of those tracks which I imagine won’t do a lot for you unless you know the context (at least until the Avengers motif kicks in), but uh… I can still hear the cheer go up from my cinema viewing of this movie. I can’t think of another movie which has brought an audience together as successfully as these two movies, and while I’ve said as much before, Alan Silvestri is the guy on the boat who beats the drums to stir the oarsmen.

Runner up: The Prowler

This is one of those movies that employs the use of pre-existing music to great success for the majority of its soundtrack, but that doesn’t mean that Daniel Pemberton doesn’t deserve to be praised for the original score. The sounds behind this climactic moment, as with many other themes in this movie, are so refreshingly different to the kind of thing you hear in most superhero movies, whilst achieving the same goals as them. And that statement rings true for so many aspects of Into the Spider-Verse.

Runner up: Inside the Numbers

Oooh, did you see that cheeky transition back into videogame music? It was glorious, wasn’t it? Shh, you don’t have to say it, I already know.

Ahem. Hi! I bought a PS4 for Marvel’s Spider-Man. It’s one of the best Spider-Man stories across all of media, and all of it is backed by John Paesano’s wonderfully cinematic soundtrack, which is – in my opinion, at least – reminiscent of the original Spider-Man movie trilogy, but better. More modern, more heroic, more epic in scale. Having this in the background while you swing through New York is truly marvellous. Why are you reading this? PLAY THIS GAME!

Runner up: Home in Florence

One of those “ooh, yeah!” moments, if you’re reading this and you’ve ever played Assassin’s Creed before. This song is iconic. It’s so evocative of Ezio’s pain and sorrow after the opening events of Assassin’s Creed 2 that you don’t once doubt his resolve to see his quest for vengeance through. It’s such a good theme that – as you’ll soon see – it was adopted as the main theme for all Assassin’s Creed games, despite being initially composed for Ezio’s own story. Because that’s the beauty of music – it can mean anything you want it to. It’s masterful as a vehicle for Ezio’s emotions, yes, but it also works as a general theme for the Assassin’s brotherhood in general, as Ezio’s story and cause is reflected in so many others of the order, for good or for ill.

Runner up: Master Assassin

Curse Ezio’s Family though, for being on the same album as Home in Florence, one of the best ambient soundtracks ever made. Ah well, City of Rome is almost as good, though different in tone. It speaks to the history of the already ancient city, making you really feel like you’re roaming around in an important center of Europe, and the world in general. The story of Brotherhood opens up a lot of avenues into planetary-scale conspiracies, so it’s only appropriate.

Runner up: Enough for One Life

This song is hauntingly beautiful. It’s been a long time since I played the game itself so forgive me for not knowing where it’s specifically used, but it really gives the impression of an older Ezio looking back on his life. As you may someday see in my writing, I really have a thing for older characters who have a lot of regrets in their life to work through, and this evokes that so beautifully that I’m touched by it even without remembering the specific context of its use in the game. Just… wow.

First, if you have a favourite theme between Revelations and Origins I assure you I’m not snubbing it, I just haven’t played those games. In fact, the reason I love this version of Ezio’s Family is because Origins is so different in theme that it went a long way to helping me reconcile this game as an entry in the Assassin’s Creed series. And it’s so masterfully made in how it’s familiar, yet Egyptian! I’ve not played the game to completion, but I have enjoyed my time with Bayek, and as I mentioned during the Ezio’s Family entry, the pains of Ezio’s journey to becoming an Assassin are mirrored in the series’ other protagonists, including Bayek.

Legend of the Eagle Bearer

And when we get to Odyssey, they finally abandon all pretence and just name it the theme of the series. Again, I’m impressed with how familiar yet unique it sounds, and how it adopts the Greek themes found elsewhere in Odyssey’s soundtrack. It’s fantastic! The only thing I don’t like about it is how they play it during the inventory screen, so it’s overdone fairly quickly. Nevertheless, that doesn’t stop it from being fantastic. As for the legitimacy of it being applied to Kassandra, well… I’ve never seen a protagonist in this series with such a well fleshed-out and interesting family tragedy. If you haven’t played Assassin’s Creed since the Ezio days, Odyssey is absolutely worth your time.


Hello again, it’s me, your favourite under-line text telling you that I’ve put a stop to this excessively long blog post. If you’ve made it this far and you’re interested in my picks for best soundtracks, then thank you, it honestly means a lot to me. It’s kind of a personal project I’m strangely passionate about. Might get more into that in part 3. So stay tuned for the final part!

Multiversal Masterpieces – The Best Soundtracks Around, Part 1

It’s no secret that I’m a huge soundtrack enthusiast, as I’ve mentioned before on this blog. Heck, I’ve made a playlist on Spotify of all my favourite soundtracks which is currently up to 913 songs! That’s a lot of songs. So, I made a smaller playlist of my absolute favourites, max one song per album, and I intend to discuss each song here today – well, across three posts, anyway.

These playlists are always growing, so I may make another post on the matter someday. For now, though:

Runner Up: Madame de Pompadour

I was 11, and this episode of Doctor Who was DEVASTATING. You’ll find that some tracks in this playlist are included due to the memories it prompts whereas others are included purely for the amazing sounds they’re composed of. This is a mixture of both; heartbreak tangified, and still effective at transporting me back to a sombre evening in 2006. (Don’t worry, I got better…)

Sidenote: This playlist, along with the much more extensive Multiversal Melodies playlist, does have a rough logical order to it. I started with Doctor Who as it’s one of the first shows to make me sit up and take notice of the soundtrack. It was probably this very song, to be honest!

OH. And only now when listening to it do I realise that the humming symbolises Rose, whilst the low strings symbolises the Doctor. Chills.

Runner up: The Doctor Forever

Regal, whimsical, and sad. Oh, and the ticking clock. Permeated by the Master’s foreboding klaxons! Murray Gold knows how to paint a picture with music.

Runner up: A Dazzling End

EXTERMINATE! EXTERMINATE!
There’s nothing I can do…
EXTERMINATE! EXTERIMINATE!
I’m sorry… we’re dead.

Ah, man. Daleks are done best when alone (Dalek, New Year’s episode) but Murray Gold makes a compelling argument for them to also be impressive when portrayed as an invading force.

Sidenote – season 4 had so many good themes it was excruciating to even pick the runner up!

Runner up: The Time Lord’s Last Stand

😞
Russel T Davies and Murray Gold owe me therapy.

Bonus points for The Waters of Mars being one of my favourite Ten episodes!

Runner up: The Sad Man With A Box

Well, duh. This is the theme that defined Eleven’s entire run. Grandiose, a bit all over the place, and ever so slightly fairytale, much like the Doctor himself. Eleven is my favourite – yes, even more than Ten, yes, even during the Clara bits – and there’s really not a lot more that needs to be said, is there?

Runner up: Melody Pond

More of the same? Maybe. If I Am The Doctor is Eleven’s swagger, The Majestic Tale are the actions the back up his confidence. Does that make sense? Probably not. Regardless, this is an epic theme and it always played during epic moments, so sue me for loving the tits off it.

Runner up: Together Or Not At All – The Song of Amy and Rory
(I also love Up The Shard, but that’s just I Am The Doctor again, isn’t it)

This episode had a lot of problems, but I fucking loved this scene. I think it was the first time we saw Eleven really have the wind taken out of him, besides the obvious- ah, but I’m talking about the show, not the theme. This, then, is one of those that I love for the context. There are better sad themes (the runner up for one), but this always takes me back to that scene in The Name of the Doctor.

“Sorry… and it was Trenzalore, it was definitely Trenzalore?”

Runner up: This Time There’s Three Of Us (The Majestic Tale)

Fuuuuck it still hurts. Eleven’s last moments. Capaldi was great and I bloody love Jodie Whittaker so far, but Eleven truly resonated with me. And this theme is really melancholic at the start. But then it transitions to something more important – something sad, but also celebratory. Eleven’s exit taught me that change is good!! And this theme takes me back there with the full weight of his entire run, without me having to actually, you know, watch his entire run again. That’s one of the reasons I love music so much. It moves you.

Look, I’m going to level with you. I’ve not rewatched Capaldi’s run, and I was very critical of the show during his stint. For these reasons, there’s really not a lot of music past season 7 here.

And yet… The Shepherd’s Boy. A familiar melody, but retouched in such an effective way. It was the perfect backdrop for Capaldi’s final monologue. It just sings determination. And honestly, who wouldn’t call Heaven Sent a masterpiece? When isolated, anyway.

Runner up: Time Lords

But season 12 provided many surprises, one of which being that Murray Gold isn’t the only one who can make a cracking good Doctor Who soundtrack. Sacha Dhawan’s Master is as capitvatingly raving as John Simm’s, but this one has an even better theme. The reveal was astounding, and it wouldn’t have been nearly as impactful without that severe change in tone brought to the soundtrack by Segun Akinola here.

Thus concludes our Doctor Who coverage. Next up: Game of Thrones!

Runner up: Small Pack of Wolves

Ramin Djawadi very quickly establishes the desolate overtones of the North with fantastic success. The tale of the Starks is largely tragic, and this soundtrack really conveys the feeling of being apart from family and those you love.

Runner up: Pay the Iron Price

When putting the Masterpieces playlist together, I wanted to make sure I represented as many of the motifs as possible across the seasons. And yet, when I heard Winterfell I knew I’d have to put two Stark themes side by side. If Goodbye Brother is the distance between family, Winterfell is the hearth from which they depart. It feels like you’re sitting by the fireplace while the winds of winter rage outside, and I’m not certain that’s a picture entirely painted by my knowing the context of the theme.

Runner up: Chaos is a Ladder

Also known as The Rains of Castamere, instrumental version, the backing theme of the Red Wedding. Oh god. When they break out the violins and Catlyn becomes suspicious. The fantastic thing about it is the song exists within the world of the show, so there’s a good chance she recognises it, understands the story of the song and the significance of its use there. Actual use of foreboding soundtrack WITHIN THE STORY OF THE SHOW! FUCK I love Game of Thrones.

Runner up: Three Eyed Raven

They got Sigur Ros to cover The Rains of Castamere and they played it in the credits after The Big Death in Early Season 4 and it was very cathartic and yes it counts as soundtrack. Oh god, those screams at the end.

Runner up: Forgive Me

What, you didn’t think I was just going to ignore the Targaryen themes, did you? Danaerys has some of the most badass and uplifting music in the show, and in my opinion it’s best represented with this track right here. It’s equal parts royal, wrathful, and idealistic. This theme never fails to give me goosebumps.

Runner up: Lord of Light (Bonus Track)

Ramin Djawadi is a master of masterpieces, but this is truly the pinnacle of his work, in my opinion. He saved his use of piano until this exact moment to make the viewer stand to attention when it began playing, feeling that something “didn’t feel right”. He uses the piano in tandem with violins to make something that sounds holy, yet foreboding. And as the scene itself has very little dialogue, the theme becomes the leading voice.

This is one of those moments where my lack of musical knowledge hinders me being able to explain just exactly what makes this so great. If you’ve seen it, you already know.

Runner up: The Army of the Dead

A theme of love and also of revelation. I won’t get into the specifics because, spoilers, but what I will say is that I paid attention to whenever this motif would pop up, and the first time it really swells is hugely appropriate and really rewards the viewer for taking note of it. For those who have seen it and need more context: I’m on about when she arrives to save him.

Runner up: The Bells / The Last War

There’s a lot of controversy about the plot of the last season of Game of Thrones, but in my opinion the execution of said plot still makes it a bloody enjoyable watch. Part of that execution includes the soundtrack, and Djawadi did not disappoint in making this pivotal point feel momentous; even if the writers did. He did away with motifs and composed purely for the moment, which I think was a beautiful decision. After all, what do houses and titles matter when something like this is occuring?

Runner up: Forest Ambush

So by now you probably get it, I like Ramin Djawadi. So when it was announced that he was scoring the upcoming Warcraft movie, holy balls I was ecstatic! Overall I really love the soundtrack for that movie, though I was secretly hoping to recognise a motif or two from WoW’s own soundtrack. Perhaps that’d come off weird, though.

Runner up: Legends of Azeroth (Main Title)

Ah, our first videogame soundtrack. You’ll notice that videogame soundtracks are often able to act as soundscapes to an environment more than show or movie soundtracks, which are often punctuated by the requirements of dialogue, or action. I chose Dun Morogh for the first WoW soundtrack here (we’re going expansion by expansion) because… well, it’s nostalgia juice. I’m reminded of the first alt character I ever created, a dwarf, and the peaceful isolation of running around the snowy zone late at night while this music played. It made me introspective then, and it makes me introspective now.

Runner up: The Sin’dorei

The Blood Elf themes in the Burning Crusade are unlike anything in the game’s soundtrack, past or since. Lament of the Highborne specifically is sung in-game by Sylvanas Windrunner when you bring her a pendant that reminds her of her past life and home.

I love levelling through the Blood Elf starting zone, largely due to their theme. So regal, so tragic, oh crap I have a type don’t I…

Arthas, My Son (Cinematic Intro)

This, as far as I can tell, isn’t the popular choice of favourite soundtrack in this expansion. And yet, it tells the story of Arthas beautifully. The way the entire track turns when he’s made his decision to purge Stratholme into a dark, almost imperial march is fantastic. I chose a lot of soundtracks based on the atmosphere they bring to a zone in the game, but this was composed specifically for a dungeon based on a character’s actions, and it reinforces how good games are as a medium of telling a story.

People bloody love Grizzly Hills, but bagpipes have always grated on me I’m SORRY

Runner up: Tempest’s Wake

Finally, a fantastic Night Elf theme! I main a Night Elf and this is music to my ears. I used it as my Garrison music for most of Warlords of Draenor, as there was a Garrison jukebox which allowed you to change what played in your very own instanced prison. But I’m getting ahead of myself; Nightsong is a battle theme for the Night Elves, the drums of war backing wonderful elven vocals. In short – we’re pretty, but don’t mess with us.

(Yes I know they messed with us and won, hush)

Runner up: Clan Warsong

Warlords of Draenor was lacking in a lot of ways, but three ways in which it was not lacking was the zone design, the levelling story, and oh yes, the soundtrack. It has the best soundtrack in the entire game, though that may be the rock enthusiast in me talking. It’s just so… badass. Weighty and dramatic. And it slaps. The Iron Horde may not know how to mount an invasion, but they sure as shit know how to make a tune.

Runner up: Demon Hunter

Ooooft. I don’t know why they decided to put Anduin’s theme and the Valarjar theme in the same song, but boy am I lucky, because those are my two favourite themes in the entire expansion. I’m typically quite a big fan of Anduin as a character, so his entire story with his father and succeeding to kingship landed very well with me, and was punctuated poignantly with this theme. As for the Valarjar theme, it’s what Blizzard used for a lot of their Q&A livestream intros leading up to the expansion’s launch, and I remember desperately wanting its final release. It’s such a good build up for hype! And something about it paints a picture of a warrior standing steadfast against incredible odds. It just sounds heroic!

Runner up: Return to Arms

Confession time: I’m not a huge lover of Kul Tiras as a continent. It is exceedingly pretty, but maritime themes just kinda bore me, likely due to its being the norm in my hometown. That being said, the theme for Boralus fucking slaps. It’s almost absurd how hype it is. It feels like I’ve ended up rocking out every time I’ve hearthed in the last year or so; indeed, it’s not uncommon to see other characters jumping around on the spot to the same groove as you.

By the way, the runner up for this one was really hard to choose. WoD may have had the best soundtrack, but they haven’t let up on the quality since.

Okay, this one is a slight cheat because it’s still tied to Battle for Azeroth. But it’s a separate release, so it counts! Basically, as Battle for Azeroth approached, Blizzard released three cinematics – named “Warbringers” – detailing the past of three major characters in the expansion. Jaina’s is based on music specifically, as the citizens of Kul Tiras have a sea shanty about how she betrayed her father back in the events of Warcraft II. And it is an absolute masterpiece.

I can’t wait to see what music Shadowlands has in store for us!

Runner up: Harmony

I couldn’t exclude Runescape just because it’s MIDI! Home Sweet Home never failed to make your Player Owned Home feel like a cosy place to relax with friends, and I associate many happy memories with it. It’s like a sunny afternoon. It just puts a smile on my face, you know?

Runner up: Death Knell

Now, there have been some pretty damn disturbing allegations against Jeremy Soule which we’ve not a verdict on, and I hope they aren’t true for everyone involved. But in case they are – I find it easy to separate the artist from the art in this instance, as I associate these sounds with a particular world and its events, and it’s orchestrated by many talented musicians.

Oblivion, then, always had this peaceful village vibe to it which I bloody loved. Talking about your latest harvest? Idyllic tunes. Discussing the untimely death of Emperor Uriel Septim VII? Idyllic tunes. Asking for help because a portal to Oblivion has opened up and demons are sacking the city just down the road? Idyllic. Tunes. Until you get closer, anyways.

I started the Elder Scrolls series with Skyrim so Oblivion was much harder for me to get into, but it has a certain atmosphere to it which Skyrim lacks, and it’s what keeps me intrigued in Skyrim’s predecessor. That, and the fantastic meme potential.

Runner up: From Past to Present

Do you get to the Cloud District very often? Oh, what am I saying, of course you don’t.

Skyrim’s soundtrack is one of those where it’s hard to distinguish one song from another, because they all have such a strong prevailing theme throughout. Nevertheless, I’ve spent hundreds of hours in Skyrim and this soundtrack is a perfect way to transport myself back to the many happy afternoons I spent in this Nordic country.


Right, we’re at 2700 words so I’m cutting it off there and calling it part one. Stay tuned for parts two and three! Expect the latter half of part two and the entirety of part three to have a lot more variety 😉

Year to Year: A Journal Through Time #14 – Quantifiable Magic (22/4/19)

Recent headlines

World: Extinction Rebellion: Climate change protesters at Natural History Museum

Gaming: Steam Users Flood Assassin’s Creed Unity With Positive Reviews Following Ubisoft’s Notre-Dame Efforts


We’re two episodes into the last season of Game of Thrones from my perspective, and I think I’ve decided that it’s my favourite fantasy universe. This sounds like an easy opinion due to its overwhelming popularity, but remember that I’m a fantasy enthusiast who has sunk literally thousands of hours into World of Warcraft over the years. I always thought Warcraft was my favourite fantasy, but the more I experience the World of Ice and Fire, the more I come to respect how little magic is used. It’s never used overtly in the show, barring the existence of dragons and the undead, and that allows power struggles and grand battles to be more relatable, whereas magic in Warcraft is less quantifiable and therefore harder to measure in a fight. The latest expansion’s war campaign sees players enacting magical strategies and countermeasures to turn the tide of battle, and I can’t help but feel that the ability to fling goblin shredders into void elf black holes is nonsensical in a story which emphasises a need for a naval advantage. If I ever do write a fantasy novel, I’ll try to bear this in mind.

I’ve just had a week off, so I don’t have all that much to discuss, bar the works of fiction I’ve been absorbed in. As an introvert, I typically don’t go out much, even when I’ve booked time off, and sometimes I get a little self conscious about that. The truth is, though, that I’m perfectly happy sat at my PC, maybe gaming with friends, maybe binging a series. This week I caught up on World of Warcraft while listening to podcasts. I also had a friend over so I could show them Labo VR, and went to my sister’s for Easter. It was pretty chill! It’s just not the kind of thing you can stretch out for 600 words. Let’s meet back here next week, okay?


Further reading:

The Weekly Deathmatch #52 – Overwatch – A Year of WDM in Hindsight

Year to Year: A Journal Through Time #13 – Goodness Me (15/4/19)

Recent headlines

World: Notre-Dame Cathedral: Firefighters tackle blaze in Paris (This is happening as I type, and it’s a damn shame. I hope nobody gets hurt.)

Gaming: Star Wars Jedi: Fallen Order – Release Date and Everything We Know (This should be out by the time this publishes, but with the gaming industry the way it is, a delay might be a blessing)


(Skip this first paragraph if you’re still avoiding Game of Thrones Season 8 spoilers.)

I’m at my family reunion, and it’s safe to say that would should have been a long-awaited pleasant homecoming is instead fraught with tension. My sister keeps disappearing without a trace, nobody knows how to talk to act around my brother with his new disability, and my eldest brother and sister have fallen out over his new girlfriend, who’s also come over to stay. It doesn’t help that she’s brought her fully-grown dragons with her. And- wait a minute, I’m not a Stark. I’m just so incredibly invested in this show that I’ve forgotten what reality is.

That’s right, Game of Thrones is back, and I spent hours upon hours last night watching fan theory videos and deep dives into the lore of the World of Ice and Fire. The show is on its eighth and final season, and while future Kristian and possibly you, reader, know how it ends, the Kristian who is writing this does not, and is uncertain as to what a post-Thrones life even looks like. Hell, I’m listening to the soundtrack while writing this and Mother of Dragons from the second season just came on; the hairs on the back of my neck just stood up. This show has done a better job of exploring a living world of people and families and politics and war than any other piece of fiction that I’ve ever explored. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that it’s also home to dragons and zombies and wolfboys and giants.

Reality, however, persists around me, and as arduous as it is I suppose I’m along for the ride, so let’s focus on that. I’ve been focusing on putting more goodness into the world recently, by way of small favours sprinkled in with the occasional grander gesture. Thing is, this isn’t something I’ve decided to do consciously, it’s just something I noticed myself doing when looking back over the last few weeks. And it’s all a bit wanky to go on about it, so I won’t, but I do want to mention that the feeling of doing something good for another human being is a natural high that is actually quite addictive. When I was sixteen I wanted to save the world, and I often give myself shit for that; it was a dream born of a desire to be seen as someone important, as a hero figure, and therefore my positive outlook on life was forced, false and doomed to fail. This latest bout of good behaviour, for want of a better term, isn’t from a place of wanting to be seen in any particular way, but is simply built on the fact that it makes me feel like my life has that little bit more value. It’s still a selfish motivation when all is said and done, but a less delusional one. I’ll take it.

I think that, when I was younger, I was so obsessed with the idea of being remembered that I lost my way in fears of being forgotten, and of ceasing to exist. Having navigated my way through this existential crisis, however, I’m happier to just make a smaller impact on the here and now. It’s no great change in my lifestyle or some grand epiphany; I think it’s just an indication that I’m in a better place than I was in 2018. (Hoo boy. What a year.)

I was going to talk about Nintendo Labo VR after that but I think that would that tonal shift would give you whiplash, dear reader, but if you are interested in my thoughts, feel free to check out the Weekly Deathmatch episode about it below.


Further reading

The Weekly Deathmatch #51 – Robot Roller Derby Disco Dodgeball – The Labo VR Ramble

Game of Thrones Season 8 Trailer – Hey, remember this? You probably wish you could go back in time to re-watch it with a blank memory. Meanwhile, I just wish I could watch the entire series at once. Wanna swap?

Year to Year: A Journal Through Time #12 – A Renewed Perspective (8/4/19)

Recent headlines

World: Brexit: Cross-party talks continue amid impasse (Yup, still going on)

Gaming: Randy Pitchford praises move to Epic Store after Borderlands 2 review bombing (Look kids, consequences for your actions!)


I read an article yesterday about Emilia Clarke suffering two brain injuries during the course of Game of Thrones, recovering in time to continue shooting, and subsequently starting a charity called Same You to improve aftercare for victims of brain injury. That is goddamn incredible. I bring it up because a few weeks ago a friend of mine told me about their own journey through a bout of critical health, and it’s renewed my appreciation for my own health and instilled me with a new level of respect for anyone who’s been through something like that. I talk about mental health a lot, and how absolutely vital it is to be good to yourself and to respect the health of others. I’m fortunate enough to know some very strong people who have kept me educated about these matters. But physical health is absolutely something I take for granted and only consider when it’s brought up. One absolutely does not cancel out the other, and I’m grateful for both of these things: that I am as aware of mental health as I need to be, and that I haven’t had to worry about my physical health on a day to day basis.

I often fret about my weight or my eating habits, but as someone who’s only physical concern is that they’ve grown a bit of a gut, I’m now aware of how little I have to worry about compared to someone who can’t be certain of their own brain continuing to function as required. My task now is to keep this perspective in mind the next time I give myself a hard time over my lack of self-control. As someone who is very much an introvert, it’s easy for me to become wrapped up in my own self-devouring narratives, and I have to constantly check my sense of reality before falling down a well of my own making. I suspect many people live similarly, and I fear that such a lifestyle is often what leads people down dark roads and into warped thought patterns. It’s why I’m so grateful to be surrounded by the people in my life, and why it’s no exaggeration when I say they light my way.

Speaking of informed life choices, I just spent seventy pounds on cardboard that I won’t even own for five days! For those of you who don’t know, the Nintendo Switch has these kits you can buy called Labo, which are sort of… ah heck, how do I describe Labo? They’re like DIY cardboard peripherals which work ingeniously with the system’s joycon controllers. Skim down to the further reading section if you’re curious, but the fourth kit is VR, and VR is something I’ve always wanted to try, so I’ve taken the plunge. I don’t know how well it will work; it’s certainly not capable of what PSVR and the Vive can do. Nevertheless, the trailer captured me, and news that Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild will be VR compatible by the end of the month has me very intrigued. It’s a third person game, for starters. It runs at 30fps in handheld mode, which is sure to cause nausea in VR. I’ve basically spent seventy quid in disbelief that this thing will be worth seventy quid. I’m sure it’s gathering dust somewhere in future Kristian’s bedroom, but I sure hope it’s not.

While we’re talking about entertainment – and why not, this’ll all be more interesting when it publishes a year later – we are one week away from Game of Thrones Season 8 premiering. I’ll find another platform to discuss overt spoilers closer to the time (maybe this very blog, via site pages), but suffice to say that at this point in my life I am full of anticipation. I finished my Game of Thrones rewatch early, and now I’m stuck trawling the internet for behind the scenes clips to sate my Westerosi thirst. The show’s Youtube channel just uploaded a bunch of videos where actors remember their time on the show, so that marks two times Emilia Clarke has brought me close to crying this week. And let me tell you, I don’t cry easy! I’m getting better at it, but it is still quite the accomplishment to make me well up. This show, their books and the world of A Song of Ice and Fire is unique in its scope and success, and I will be immeasurably sad when it is over. Hopefully HBO can pull off their prequel series with half as much expertise. In the meantime, future Kristian: maybe it’s time for that full series 1-8 rewatch you’ve been considering. Winky face.


Further reading:

Emilia Clarke on ‘Game of Thrones’ – Not my typical vehicle for information, but hey, this is where I heard about her brain injury scares.

The Cast Remembers: Emilia Clarke on Playing Daenaerys Targaryen – Crying emoji. Crying emoji. Bawling emoji.

Nintendo Labo: Toy-Con 4: VR Kit – Nintendo are not doing me any favours with that voice-over.

The Weekly Deathmatch #50 – Cube 2: Sauerbraten – Expensive Cardboard – Yeah I discuss Labo in this video too, but I’m cutting myself some slack because this was published a year ago from your POV!

Year to Year: A Journal Through Time #11 – A Small Rant (4/1/19)

Recent headlines

World: Brexit: MPs debate next steps ahead of indicative votes (My two pence: If they don’t give us another vote, they’re ignoring democracy for their own ends)

Gaming: Co-op shooter rogue-like Risk of Rain 2 surprise-launches in Steam early access (And it’s HELLA FUN)


I’m going to be honest with you, reader: I’m pretty mad right now, and it’s for the most asinine reason. I’m mad because I presented a simple question to the internet and was met with hostility. Crazy, right? Who’s ever heard of that happening before? But when I asked r/PS4 if there was any way to boost the visibility of demand for the Ratchet and Clank original trilogy to be ported to the console, I was mocked for not knowing how game development works or how businesses are run.

“Well, it is reddit.” Right, yes, reddit has a proven record of being infested with toxicity and swathes of psuedo-intellectuals who all think they’re the smartest person around. But it’s not just a reddit problem. It’s an internet problem. Everywhere you look, self-assured cynics are spouting obviouslys and naturallys and generally patting themselves on the back for knowing more about the world than the perceived masses of the stupid and the naive. That’d be bad enough, but anonymity gives them license to be as hostile as they want, and cartoon avatars further distance any empathy these people would otherwise have, burying the fact that the person the spitting venom about videogames at are real people. Teenage Kristian would be mortified to hear me say this, but I would not miss anonymity on the internet if it went away. I’m that tired of people.

Anyway, er… besides that, my week’s been pretty good. It’s April 1st (hurr hurr April Fools, I fooled you into reading my regular weekly blog post) which means we’ve begun the month that has all the exciting things in it. Mostly I’m referring to the final season of Game of Thrones and Avengers: Endgame releasing, but there’s also Shazam!, Hellboy, the Borderlands remaster and more coming out this month. It’s a pretty rad month! And while I can’t think of much happening in May, I know that there’s more awesomeness approaching in the summer. It is a good time to be interested in the things I’m interested in.

Since I know that future Kristian is reading this, I’d like to update him on some contextual information: I’ve just decided to reformat the Roguelike Ramble into a style of livestream after playing Risk of Rain 2, I’m working on my first month of weekly videos where I spend an hour in a game and upload 15 minutes per week (it’s Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel, not that anyone knows it yet), and I’m currently binging all of the Legend of Zelda Game Grumps series that I can find. This might be interesting to you, dear reader, but if I’m being brutally honest this is just padding. Once again I’ve been blessed with a quiet week, and little to discuss. Don’t worry; the mind is never calm for long.


Further reading:

The Weekly Deathmatch #49 – Unreal Tournament – Real People Too Stronk